How dare fanfiction!

you may have won the carlisle battle, but who will win the carlisle war?

that was an empty threat; take it how you want. i myself don't really understand what it means. moving on . . .

haha, and i changed my picture! this time my picture is silly-looking (my synonym for your "loser" haha) like the original one you chose for me, but i feel my face looks less grotesque than it did in the other one. half of my silly pictures usually involve my face looking like the ugliest woman on earth, and the other half of my silly pictures involve my face looking like maybe the 15th or so ugliest woman on earth. i always choose the latter for posting purposes. this way every time i log on to this, i don't have to look at extreme ugliness. it makes my day go a little better :) you look adorably cute and even sexy in your silly picture. and you know it.

does Manny know how to count cards? i really need to learn. you and i should learn together!

i agree that Across the Universe got too psychadelic. i had trouble staying focused around then. the only thing that kept me going at that point was the fact that i was putting off writing a paper. it was an easy decision which one to put myself through.

and what is up with the Twilight fanfiction!!! i mean, first i should say, i probably will read it haha. but i'm still appalled and stunned at the thought of someone tampering with Twilight. and what if Meyer does decide to add another book? then i'm gonna have to block out everything from the fanfiction. and what if i can't sort through the real Twilight and the fake Twilight?? what if lose the sense of the real Twilight! what if i can never go back and re-do the mistake of having read the fanfiction in the first place! the horror!

i'm still gonna read it. i'll just have to worry about the repercussions later. oh life.

i love Twilight.

i think you should totally go to Coldplay because i know how much you love them! i on the other hand don't . . . really . . . know them too well =/ i know i know, Coldplay and Lost . . . two things i need to get into. and Harry Potter. so much to do, so little time.

you know what else i have to do! finish my song!! i've been working on it off and on for the past two weeks. i'm really limiting myself on the amount of time i spend behind that though because as my work situation grows more dire, my focus on doing something more productive for my future increases exponentially. i recently "discovered" craigslist and so i've been doing a lot of applying to jobs on that. i'm trying to also get a second job for the time being to supplement my income.

i borrowed this like 900 page book from the library called like the Excel Bible. so many positions require intermediate or advanced excel so i really need to learn this nonsense. so many positions also require accounting knowledge so i think it would be in my best interest to take an accounting class or two this summer. i just don't think i'm gonna get hired for a serious job without some accounting knowledge. it's way more crucial to economics and finance than i realized. why wasn't it a core course in my major??? wtf cornell?!

yeah, so i'm deciding between taking an online undergraduate course or two at suffolk or taking one graduate mba course at stonybrook. i really want to take the mba course. the benefits of the suffolk online courses though are that they are muchhhhhhhhhh cheaper and money is definitely a serious factor in my decision because i don't have a spare $1500 to spend out-of-pocket for an mba course. and another benefit of the online course is that if i did find a job, day classes wouldn't get in the way. but i know the quality of education would be much different :(

also, what's the difference between managerial and financial accounting? i know NOTHING about accounting at all :(

but yeah, i'm realizing after talking to different people that in order to get into business school next year, i'm gonna need work experience that proves i deserve to be in and want to be in business school. and i think i'm gonna need great excel skills and accounting skills to get a job like that. so i really need to decide on this course thing and register.

long story short, hopefully my song will be done soon :) like i said, i haven't been allowing myself to spend much time on it lately, but i think i'm gonna do some more work on it tomorrow. i figure, i'm gonna bring my gmat book on the plane so i have a good 10-12 hours round-trip of gmat practice set out for next week so i can allow myself a few hours tomorrow of music writing.

i've written the instrumentals for the first verse, then the refrain, then the chorus, then the second verse, then the refrain, then the chorus, then the bridge, and that's as far as i've gotten with the instrumentals, but the lyrics are all done. i probably only have another 20 measures or so to write. BUT, i'm re-thinking my chorus. i think it's too simple. and i don't want to play it safe on my BREAK-OUT PIECE haha. i could be being overly critical but when i listen to it with all the parts put together, it just seems too predictable. i want insane melodies and beautiful harmonies and much unpredictability. so yeah, i might need to re-write my choruses. and i need to fix some transitions. i don't have much experience with drums and so i think i overdo them a little at some points. much fine tuning is needed. i'll give you a preview once the full rough draft is done. then i'll do the rest of the fine-tuning. i can at least tell you the name of the song :)

"Justice Heals"

there you have it! i'd send you all the lyrics as it is now, but i'd really rather you heard it with music. and plus i really do want to expand the chorus' lyrics.

i think we should put Utada up on the site :) how about any song we put up needs to be up for at least 24 hours, but after that, it's fair game to be changed? i like Utada actually; "Come Back to Me" is pretty catchy. good choice!

i guess i am starting to get pretty excited about vegas :) i like being out of my comfort zone every now and then and i've been seeing a whole lot of coram for a while now so i'm looking forward to a change of scenery. i'm also looking forward to the plane ride. i hear it gets pretty bumpy when you're flying across the country so that might be an exciting feeling. this will be my fourth time flying so it still feels very exciting to me haha. jfk always excites me too . . . just seeing everyone on their way to new destinations and new adventures . . . there's so many different people going different places. very fascinating to my brain.

i think for tonight, i only have one claim. Daniel Craig. i was a big fan of Casino Royale, but i still need to see Quantum of Solace. that's something else to add to my to-do list.

i wish i clamed taylor lautner :(

i'm gonna go wash my face and head to bed . . . i'd go to bed without washing my make-up off but . . . i'm gonna try and be good tonight.

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